HOW CAN I EVER GO ON (chronicles of my psionic damage)

[braintransplant]

hades (supergiant)
thanatos' keepsake bond message: with whom should death belong, if not with blood, with life?

the left hand of darkness by ursula k le guin
- how does one hate a country, or love one? what is love of one's country; is it hate of one's uncountry?
- if you ever lied to me, it was long ago, and in another country.
- we are mortal enemies. yet i have never seen you before. / once i saw you, long ago.
- it is a terrible thing, this kindness that human beings do not lose. terrible, because when we are finally naked in the dark and cold, it is all we have. we who are so rich, so full of strength, we end up with that small change. we have nothing else to give.

marie howe from "the teacher"
can we love without greed? without wanting to be first? everyone wanted to pour his wine, to sit near him at the table. me too. until he was dead. then he was with me all the time.

the winged histories by sofia samatar
- i wanted to smash the diali, to strike her face. i would have swallowed her whole if it meant i could take her with me.
- delicious motto of the traitorous dead. sometimes i could not sleep, thinking of how i would say those words to him. kestenya rukebnar.
- "olondria must answer," i said. / and dasya turned to me in eagerness and whispered: "yes, you see it, you're not afraid."
- i pushed my way to odra and asked him what they were praying about and he turned on me, tears glinting in the lines on his face, and swore at me, what did i think, the last animal in the village and we were killing it.
- "bring the others down," i said. my voice came out so beautifully, simple and full of reason in the silence. later the same voice said softly and clearly: "kill the horse." she was the last one, i did not need to say her name.
- you, riding over the fold of the mountain. coming down hard like rain.
- and fadhian gone now. gone. dead in your war. can i say these things together in this way? you riding over the fold of the mountain and flowers for your hair and fadhian dead. can i say it? can you write it?
- to lose a sibling is to lose the one different from you. there's no one now against whom to say: but i am like this. i am this. i think when we love we look for someone against whom to say: but i am like this. say something. speak against me.
- "you could say this ilok gave me my life, but you can't really say i deserve it." / "that's not true," says siski. "you're the best of us."
- i hope i have made you weep. i hope i have made you think of me for one moment. just one moment. i dream sometimes of your wrist. your shoe

kathleen turner interview
what else, aside from luck, has driven your career? / rage. 

the terror (amc adaption)
- does one not bring his habits to marriage? / does one not bring his habits to terror?
- are we brother, francis?
- i always felt i deserved more. so i went to sea, age 12, and began to build myself a great gilded life that didn't humiliate me to live. all those stories you would have my biographer tally as courage, its all vanity. always has been. and we are at the end of vanity.

the dragon republic
you would be stunned. you have no idea how many men are like altan trengsin.

dune by frank herbert
you cannot back into the future.

the favourite (2018)
lady sarah: because i will not lie! that is love!

haikyuu
- surely, you will always be small. you need to understand that you will get fewer chances than others. hinata-kun, right now...this, is also volleyball.
- don't you ever forget this worthless pride of mine.
- if you're going to hit it, hit it until it breaks.

underbelly by nicole homer
the truth is: i have made fire before: stone against stone. mightbelove, i have sharpened this knife before, blade against blade. i have hurt and hungered before: flesh against flesh. i won’t make a dull promise.

the tiger’s wife by tea obreht
come on, is your heart a sponge or a fist?

interview w/ the machine woman
i: why did you kill your creator?
mw: he was my father.
i: did you hate him?
mw: who does not hate the person to blame for their existence? just a little?
i: when they found you, you had washed and dressed his body. you were laying with your head on his shoulder.
mw: sometimes there is love in hatred, too.

a quiet place (2018)
i love you. i have always loved you.

fleabag
episode 1
fleabag: this is a love story.
episode 6
priest: love isn’t something that weak people do.
episode 6
fleabag: i love you.
priest: it’ll pass.

game of thrones
s3e6: the climb
V: i did what i did for the good of the realm.
L: the realm? do you know what the realm is? its the thousand blades of aegon's enemies. a story we agree to tell each other over and over, until we forget that it's a lie.
V: but what do we have once we abandon the lie? chaos. a gaping pit waiting to swallow us all.
L: chaos isn't a pit. chaos is a ladder. many who try to climb it fail , never to try again. the fall breaks them. and some are given the chance to climb, but they refuse. they cling to the realm, or gods, or love. illusions. only the ladder is real. the climb is all there is.

midsommar (2019)
pelle: dani, do you feel held by him? does he feel like home to you?

detroit: become human 
chapter 22: the bridge
H: i could kill you, and you would just come back like nothing happened, but are you afraid to die, connor?
C: i would certainly find it regrettable to be...interrupted, before i can finish this investigation.
H: what will happen if i pull this trigger, hm? nothing? oblivion? android heaven?
C: i...doubt there's a heaven for androids.
H: having existential doubts, connor? sure you're not going deviant too?
C: i self test regularly. i know what i am, and what i am not.

horizon zero dawn
the proving | massacre cut scene
H (holding a knife to aloy's throat): turn your face to the sun, child.
the face of extinction | capturing helis cut scene
H: impossible. i am chosen. this was not meant to be.
A: none of this was meant to be, helis. you made it happen. followed your orders, butchered so many - and for what? to die on your knees, used like a pawn by a power you don't even understand.
H (with disgust): you pity me?
A (spear to his throat): turn your face to the sun.

the goldfinch (2019)
boris: theo, you have to walk.

dreams of clytemnestra
O: where have i seen you before?
M: in a dream.
O: a thousand years ago.

the overstory
chapter: mimi ma (mulberry)
A: who are they?
SH: holy people.
A: what's wrong with them?
SH: happiness. they see the true thing.
A: and what is that?
SH: the true thing mean:  human beings, so small, and life, so very big.
A: they've just worked this out?
SH: yes.
A: and this makes them happy?
SH: yes.

edge of tomorrow (2014)
i wish i didn't know you. but i do.

Comments

[prizefig]

really surprising me that "is your heart a sponge or a fist?" something you didn't make up

[braintransplant]

i know right...at least it means i have braintwins out there writing books and shit